I need to get back on the treadmill. I have been off of it for several weeks now, and just watch the weight crawl back up daily.

 

life is a vicious cycle. You find food in the fridge, you know it's not going to help you lose weight, but its been in the fridge for three days, and its not going to last much longer, so you heat it up, and finish it off, even though it was more food than you were originally planning on. You just hate to see that last little bit of food be wasted. Then you run on a treadmill to work off the extra that you shouldn't have eaten, plus hope to lose some that you should have eaten. Your wife buys half of a cow, so all the meat in the freezer is beef, which is good by itself when its steaks, but you generally want potatoes to go with it.. Suddenly you are adding butter, sour cream, salt, pepper, etc.. etc..
My wife in particular doesn't like seafood, so there is nearly none of it in the house. My kids are growing up fast, and eating more, and more, so one box of hamburger helper doesn't cut it for the family anymore. Last night I made a box of Hamburger Helper and warmed up some burritos for myself. Just the three girls polished off the hamburger helper, so there would have been none for myself, or Julie if we were to eat also. So if I wouldn't have done the burritos, and made two boxes of HH, then Julie and I would have theoretically had our own box, which she wouldn't eat near half, and I would feel bad about leaving a little bit in the fridge, so would stuff it down.


I know its all a mind set. eat to live, vs. live to eat, but I feel like its engrained into me, because that is the example I was given growing up. I am not sure how to break the cycle. I am stubborn.. that is all.

 

I am hovering at the 250lb mark-- I can't seem to get past it-- Guess I'll have too... too.... (I can hardly say it) exercise! Ugh

 

Just had to do my DOT physical and passed with flying colors official weight as of yesterday is 326 lbs so I'm still kickin chicken

 

BawK Bawk!!

 

Think I should just give up on trying to keep weight off and embrace the weight gain, because when the earth shifts, and gravity changes, all the light weight people will just float away, but I will still be here, chillin, trying to find a lid for my cup so the beer doesn't fall out the top..

 

yep-- still fat here

 

Still sexy here...

 

hahaha!!!!

 

end of last week, I was crowding 210 lbs again, but after working all day at the car show, I weighted in at 203 Sunday morning. I did a bunch of walking, but didn't figure I lost much weight, because for lunch I had three cheeseburgers. I had planned to order one, but after 25 minutes of standing in line, smelling the grill, and watching people walk off with burgers, the magic number that came out of my mouth was three.

 

Hovering around the 250 mark- going to have to exercise some :-(

 

I hate those words....

 

me too..............

 

Worked pretty hard yesterday- then sat on the couch after supper- Watched deadpool though-- not kid friendly btw.

 

I mowed last night, so I used that as an excuse to not run on the treadmill, the day before that I did landscaping at one of work's locations, and I used that for an excuse not to run on the treadmill, the day before that, I was tired and took a nap, and used that for an excuse not to run on the treadmill... U see a pattern here? that makes about 1 month, that I have had excuses not to run on the treadmill. I wonder what excuse I can come up with tonight?