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Thanks Terry. Would ya believe it. My own little Girl called the Troopers on me. They just left so I guess I'm Ok for now. Ya know a place ta stay in Oregon? HAAAAA
hey Arctic....just popping in, I have read a lot of your posts over the past year, some of it is good stuff, that tells me you have a lot to offer to others, yea you are not perfect, who is....and so what, the thing is that you do impact others in good ways, you just may not know it or see it. think about the positive and keep on moving forward anyway you can.
Tonight on the way to go canoing, we seen a guy in a wheel chair, (Big older fella in a low income area) leaning over workin on a mini-van, i mean he was half out of the chair leaning into the engine bay, well when we got back about two hours later he had it running, oh forgot to mention about the part where he was missing the lower part of his leg below the knee cap? yea, like he really should be doing something like all things considered.
They think I'm suicidal Bunny. Haa can ya imagine that. Like I told em as long as yer talking about it than I prolly won't happen. It's when I quit talking about it that one has to worry. I guess I read that some where. Damn I lonely. They are the first people other than you all that I have talked to in two days. Thanks for the support all. It helps.
Thanks Ray. I may do that George. But I need to go have a power nap as having not eaten in two days has me a little puny. If I get the chance I would luv to drop in later. Hay maybe we should start an every day losers club. Haaa Good by for now all. And thank you all
No ya ain't. There are 400,000 people here to talk to, who want to listen and talk to you back.
If you want to talk to one of them from Australia... PM me your phone number, I would love to shoot the breeze.
What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
dick.. it's not the same as 1 to 1 interaction but allow the positive aspect of even the interaction you can get here. i was lower than whale crap last yr. and even the non personal contact i got from this place probably saved my life.
please keep in mind that as long as your family is on earth there is a chance for things to get better. once the loved one is "gone" all chances are lost. i withdrew after Nan died. it was my biggest mistake emotionally. the solitude only kept my loss always in the front.
it was my interaction with members here that kept me from walking in front of a train. i've actually started seeing my dr's. again and may schedule the back and hip surgery that i've needed for 2 yrs, but put off because i had to take care of Nan and then canceled 'cause i didn't care anymore.
take a breath, take some time, interact. i didn't and it haunted me.
i am doing as i say now, and honestly..... it's getting easier to breathe.
Your courage is astounding Carl. I'm glad to hear your doing a better these days. One day at a time.....it gets easier.
It's what I said to you last night Richard. In order to survive and move on, you need to accept the good, bad and ugly. It's not considered defeat. It's a trial in life that shows us that life is worth living. You have your family and friends that care for you, and yes, they will be at a loss if you weren't around.
Thanks Carl. Your words and thoughts have always been an inspiration to me. If I start to babble it may be cuz I haven't eaten in a fer days and the only human contact has been my friends on here or yesterday when the Troopers came to check on me. I got a few more days of working on the boat that a healthy Man could do in a few hours. Once I get it running and in the water than I can be gone from her life as she asked. The pain of missing them is getting worse every day. And I don't do pain well. Like you I have canceled all things to do with the Dr's and am just willing myself to give up. Without them I got nothing anyway.
Arctic
Your courage is astounding Carl. I'm glad to hear your doing a better these days. One day at a time.....it gets easier.
It's what I said to you last night Richard. In order to survive and move on, you need to accept the good, bad and ugly. It's not considered defeat. It's a trial in life that shows us that life is worth living. You have your family and friends that care for you, and yes, they will be at a loss if you weren't around.
Whats there to survive for or move on to. I can't even pack an arm load of fire wood in wothout my back and legs giving out. Than laying there till I can pull myself up the rail only to find that I craped my pants in the prosses. No I can't do It alone so why even try. I don't blame her, Who would want to spend the rest of there live taking care of a cripple like me. Her friends (was me friends I thought) are telling her she is young and hot and needs to be with someone that can do what she likes. I wish her and the boys the best. But I know it won't as she will get a worse pice of crap than me if its possible. Seem thats the way I allways works out.
Dick, if as you say my words mean something to you TRY to heed them. i know what you're feeling. i did the things you are now, no eating, withdrawl, hiding from my ailments, etc. i know that hearing from someone across the country can be somewhat hollow due to the distance, but we are connected by a huge loss. keep this in your heart,, your issue may(i hope) work out for the better even if it doesn't work out the way you want it to.
keep your head above the fog you find yourself in now. yeah i know that's a "do as i say, not as i did" deal. but i'm the proof that as bad as it gets, there can be better things after the fog clears. eat something bud, walk through a store, go for a drive to someplace you haven't been in a while, hell, play marbles. do something that clears your mind for even 10 minutes.
i didn't do these types of things and paid a price. Nan would NOT have been proud of me. you need not go through that guilt if you find inspiration in any posts from the people here.
NH.... thanks for the words
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