Hey Artic,

Man am I glad to see you are doing better! When I first read this post I was worried for you bro. It's been a few days since I've been on the site and I honestly was afraid what I may read when I got on tonight. It's obvious things are getting better and I am so danged happy for you. A minute ago I was having a hard time typing because the keyboard was fogging up. (Yup, need to look at the keys to type) Took a sec for the fog to clear, but am back on track now. All throughout this post, everyone has said you are like family in some way to us. It is true. We all are. Brought together by the love of Ford trucks. I think everyone knows if anyone has some stuff going on we can just get on the site and talk to our brothers and sisters and each one will be there for the other. Many have offered me encouragement and I know Lenny's story and Dennis's but I have never met them. Same goes for you. But call me hokey but I feel like I actually know many of the people on this site but have never met them and may never meet them. Pretty cool stuff when I can jump on here and say I am having a crappy day or something is amiss and folks will write back with encouragement or support. I am so so so glad you took that first step asking for help, even though you may not realize you did, and are now well on the way to getting better. No doubt you still have battles to fight, but rest easy knowing you have sqaudrons of your Ford friends forming up all around you and will march with you and together we will win the battle.

Rich

 

Hey Rich, I just spent two hours reading this whole post.

All I can say is you've been offered some of the greatest friendships and love here, than most anyone I know of.

When you are at the bottom of the ladder, there's no where else to go but back up, sir.
Checkin' out just ain't fair ... to you .. or to your kids. You've said how much you love them... then you DO WHAT IT TAKES TO SURVIVE. I don't think you really want to hurt them and make them feel as rotten as you do. Only thing is, they're young. Their pain and suffering will last much longer.

I worked in Mental Health for the last 17 years, before they decided my condition was a safety risk for our suicidal clients. Bleh...bull puckey... but that's all behind me now. Am I angry? OH HELL YES!! Am I gonna do something stupid because I can't work? Oh hell no!

I read up there somewhere that you're a believer in the Lord. Well, so am I. I probably wonder what His plan for me is, almost as much as you do. I have no idea if I'm going to Heaven when my time comes, but if I do, I'd love to meet ya there, buddy.

Heck.. ya already live in a little slice of Heaven. I've checked out your island on Google earth. Unfortunately..lol.. your island is about as important as my hometown and hasn't been photo'd very close. I was gonna look for your truck and boat, but alas...all I got was a danged ole blur.

Now look here ya old phart. If I can live through a couple real nasty broken hearts... and I'm about as whussy as ya get when it comes to falling out of love..... you can too. There ain't no woman worth the pain, man. I know it sure seems like it, when yer heart keeps feeling those pangs of pain, like she's standing in front of you, hurting your feelings over and over. I lived with that pain for so long and I was sooooo tired of it. I used to sit down, all alone in my little trailer house out in the country, and cry so hard I got the neighbor's dogs carryin' on, listening to me.

You've got a lotta friends here and that's a heck of a lot more than some people have. No matter where I look...no matter how down and depressed I am, all I have to do is look around me and it's too easy to find someone who's worse off than I am. I'm sure that if you look around you can find them too.

My apologies for not reading and posting on this thread long ago. I just don't post or do much of anything else like I used to, fighting this stinking depression, myself. I can't say I know how ya feel, because nobody but you feels it... but I CAN say that I've been as close to meeting my maker as you seem to be.

Don't do it, Rich. There's an old saying that time heals all wounds. It took me forever, it seems, to get over my heartbreak, when the most beaufiul girl in the world and I broke up, long ago. But it can be done..so you just remember that!

Alright..I'll hop down off my little white horse and let your friends pick up where they left off. You listen to them, ya hear? I promise you.. it can get better, but you have to decide that you want it to. So get off yer butt and agree with me.. get better..and get on with yer life.

 

Morning Folks. Thanks for still being here. And thanks for the new supporters. I didn't expect to wake up to More Azz chewing but know I deserve it and will try and put all your words to use. I got my SSI packet yesterday and will work on that this morning, They want all the medical release forms filled out and sent back ASAP. I just don't remember the times and dates of everything. She does and promised to help. But that won't happen know. So much for promises. Calling her to ask a question may work a time or two than she will just let the answering machine take it or go for a drive so I won't bug them. So I am going to take a look at the packet and maybe It won;t me so bad and I can remember enough to get through it. Thanks for being here for me Friends. I need ya more now than ever.
Useless Tricky

 

G'morning Richard

Don't feel "useless tricky", get hot! Move along at your best speed, wrench and bleed working on the boat upgrades, kick the dog, all that stuff that makes us feel good. I'm off to the shop w/ new ignition for the '78, see ya' in a bit.

 

Been all day trying to get the SSI paperwork figured out and cleaning the house up. Ya never know I may get some company. And It's raining to hard to do much out side.

 

Get that paperwork done!If you have any problems with it,PM me and I will make some phone calls.

 

As they asked in Ghostbusters........ Who ya gonna call? (The Charmin man?)

 

Thanks KT. If I can't get the help I was promised tomorrow than I might take you up on that. That is if there is a tomorrow. She is taking the boys the house and all my stuff and just wants me gone. I can't live knowing another man is living in my house and raising my kids. Thanks to everyone for your support and love. I just wish I could have shown Her the love I have always had for her. But It's to late. So I am going to get drunk and try and get out of there life the only way I know how if I can work up the guts . So this Is prolly good by. I'm just so sorry for not showing her I loved her.

 

OK Trickey, this is it: You say "she is taking." I don't think so.

She would have to have a pretty strong legal claim to do such a thing.

So get your act together right now!!!!!!

Just tell her NO dammit!!!!!

There is no reason for you to knuckle under..... you are almost there.

Call me!

Bruce

 

There IS NO too late!

call me. See your PM for my phone number.

 

Richard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just calm down!!!!!!!! You have just as many rights as she does. Don't fold now!!! You have to be there for your children. Right now, and forever, they are and will be the most important thing in your life.

PLEASE, Please don't let them down.

Be strong buddy. I'm crying right now, and so will your children.

 

I'm with B on this one Rich, use the phone and talk to someone. Whether your right or wrong, all things will pass. I will PM you my cell number, if you leave me your number I'll call you back, I have plenty of minutes to use.

 

Tricky ~ You did show her you loved her. You built her a house, you gave her children, you gave her everything she needed to be happy. It is she who has not shown her love for you. "For better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and health..." She is the one walking out... If she loved you, then she would be as willing to do anything humaly possible to make it better. She is the one who gave up on you ~ Not the other way around. Alaska is NOT a community property state. This means she cannot take anything unless you let her. Think about that! Did you really work your butt off all these years so she could just replace you with the next 'stud muffin' that comes along? I bet not... Why make it easy for her? She certainly is not making it easy for you...

 

tricky dont give up man, IT'S YOU'r house you biult it ect.so why let her have it,oh wait id let'r have it allrite with a swift kick from my lawer. lock the doors and stay there

 

Richard

You sound like I did back in November.....what did I do wrong.... what didn't I do....where did I go wrong, I should have done this.....I know things would have worked out if I only.....

BS......she made the choice and is using you, playing on any fault you ever had. She may even acknowledge because you would not pass the salt at dinner was the reason. Kick her to the curb and pull up your boot straps.....time to clean out of the barn and get on with life. I did....I love my new life, met allot of good people and now see how stupid and blind I was.

I hated all women for what they do, today I am just down to one....