The headaches came back earlier this week. I had 3 of them and only one of them holds the "cluster headache" name. The other two were only extremely painfull, but i could still manage. Its probably been a few years now ive been putting up with them, and they have been fewer in number, but the pain hasnt subsided. I can tell its taken a toll on my dad as well. He has never really been down about anything, well at least when he is he dosnt let me see it. This time is different, he even told me that its questioning his faith. After he said that was when i got concerned because he believes deeply in it. Hes really upset cause theres nothing he can do about it, among other reasons.

So anyway the headaches came right as i got over a nice virus. So now they got me on these steroids (to try to prevent the headaches) that are major bullcrap. Im deffinatly gonna stop taking them cause i feel crazy. Im really spaced out and social situations are uncomfortable for some reason. I cant think of anything to say and i just feel really awkward for some reason. Its like giving someone a pill that makes them bipolar and makes them feel like theyre tripping *****. Its not the greatest experience. Would you rather go through insanity or a truly indescribable pain? Those are my options. So anywho, while those steroids are running around in my head making me crazy, the virus decided to show its face again. So as i type this my throat is swelling back up. I really dont give enough of a crap to keep typing about the other problems pink eye, rash, the god forsaken twitches, etc.

I know im going through a world of crap and it will be over one day. But what do i tell my pops? Hes really down and i dont know what to tell him. The one thing he wants i dont think hell get and nobody knows why. So what do i tell him?

I kinda do feel a bit better after venting, i guess i should get this off my chest instead of bottling it up.

 

Go to the church of your choice.

Get on your knees. pray.

Do go to communion. Take the body, and blood of the Lord into your mouth, and swallow.

Do this in rememberance of me. Amen

 

I don't go to doctors because all they want to do is medicate you. Maybe they get some bonus from the pharmicutical company for prescribing drugs to all those people. Try herbal remedies for a while. It can't hurt. And do what smokestone52 said. I hope you feel better.

 

Print this out and let him read it. Things could be MUCH worse.

http://www.carm.org/kjv/Job/Job_1.htm

 

Different doctor- second... or even third opinion? Prayers and thoughts going your way.

 

Get more aggressive about the treatment. Find a doctor that knows what he is doing.

Tell your father that faith isn't faith until it is tested. Stand strong. Keep the faith.The end will come.

 

Ask your doctor to prescribe the brand name meds, not the generics. Feel free to vent.

 

God knows i know venting is good for the soul. i'm saying a silent 1 for you now.

 

Wow, reading over that was strange. I find it hard to believe that was me, im not the type of person to go off like that about my problems. But as an update i do feel much better, although im still sick, im also happy again. The problem at the time of me righting that was that i had taken one of those steroid pills and they really were making me crazy. I felt extremely distant, if that makes sense. Nothing would make an impression on me, like if something was funny or whatever it would pass right through me. Its really hard to explain but its ok cause its over with and im not taking those pills again. Im just hoping that the headaches have passed and i wont have another. Even if i do, oh well, as they say in forrest gump, "(blank) happens, sometimes." It wont keep me down.

 

Doctors always think that if you are not well, you body doesn't have enough drugs in it or it has too many organs! Don't seem right somehow...