I fall in and out of that mood quite a bit in the past recent years. I don't feel like ending it all, but I do feel "empty" and pointless on the inside sometimes for really no reason that I can see. I can really relate about goals and ideas that I really wanted to pursue that have now passed and are no longer available as options. Regrets in family time, life accomplishments, hobbies, etc. On the flip side there has been examples of these items that I did complete and material purchases that I thought were going to bring me great joy and were quickly forgotten and ended up doing nothing for me (except family time, that one has never been regretted once ). Wifey gets the same way too sometimes and I find that it really helps us just step back and look at the positives (as cliche as that sounds) of what we DO have and how lucky we are to have been given the opportunities we currently have. I think it truly is human nature to be complacent and have "pity-parties" for ourselves every once in a while, nothing wrong with riding out those feelings but we can't let it run our day-to-day lives. I feel like the human body does enjoy a range of emotions and it is good to feel the bad sometimes to really appreciate what a heartfelt "good" emotion feels to us.

That's enough heavy, emotional stuff for me today though. You stay healthy as best you can, and keep being the awesome guy you've always been!

 

I get the same feeling, but mine is more of a uselessness feeling of working at my job. The less I do, the less I get my butt chewed, so that is why I spend so much time here at FTE. I don't find my job to be more than a paycheck. It has no meaning to me. I don't strive to get better at it, because it doesn't take me anywhere. I think we have a 3 year plan to switch jobs and homes to maybe somewhere around Beloit if there is employment.

 

That really sucks dude. I was hoping that the IT banking would would have been as exciting and beneficial as it's been to me. I'm really lucky that I work for a great family-owned small bank and that everyone really gets along and works well together. I've been working my tail off to move up the ladder there and they do appreciate it and give me praise for my efforts so I can't complain at all. I sure hope you find someplace what your looking for near Beloit, you sure have a great employment background to get you on-board with plenty of companies in that area!

 

Yeah, I was hoping it would be to. I guess it wasn't enough change from what I was doing, so it felt more like I was hopping out of the frying pan, into the fire, but it was clear I couldn't stay at my last job, it was truly killing my soul. I want to find a job that gives me a reason to get out of bed, something where I feel I make a difference, and where I am considered knowledgeable about the product, or service. I know just enough here to keep my head above water, but I could never excel, because the playing field changes faster than I can keep up. I guess that would be fairly normal in any company that has gone through as many changes as this one has in such a short amount of time.

 

I am sorry you aren't gratified with your job :-( and I hate to be a downer but are you going to find employment in Beloit suitable to your families lifestyle? We found living in Beloit many things were higher priced, and you had to make trips to Salina or Hastings more often. Being closer to family would be a plus-- But wages are lower in Beloit-- and there is not allot of decent jobs-- Its not like a bigger place where you can move on to another one -- there just isn't that many. Not trying to be a downer- just tring to be realistic. Carolyn and I have gone round and round on this topic discussing it over and over-- My job would move me there If I chose to go-- But there are allot of things about living in small town America that would be hard for us to get used to-- Hardware store store-- 2 if they don't have you have to do without-- same with everyplace else-- Grocery store-- ect ect ect-- No more Lowes-- Orileys -- I guess what I am getting at is there is a severe lack of choices-- as Calista says-- You get what you get and you don't through a fit" -- I could see moving back after retirement-- but until then I'll stay someplace a little bigger (just maybe out in the country) --- You should just move to Newton and open an off road park!

 

You didn't post on here-- so I am sorry if I offended-- I was just giving my viewpoint-- We are in the same situation, you and I-

 

I just now read this. I know what you are saying about employment. Mostly my family and Julie's are aging, and there isn't really many people to check in on them or help them if they need help. Also, time slows down in a smaller town. I thought about looking into Osborne Industries, they are constantly growing, and I find interest in their process and products. However I should tour it first to see if I could see myself doing work there. Houses in Beloit aren't a bunch cheaper, or any from what I can tell. I wouldn't mind a physical job rather than a mental job, but a few years down the road I may change my mind if my body starts to give in.

 

Beloit may not be for me, but it may be worth looking into. You are correct about the lack of choices. I just need to find my niche, and run with it.

 

Of course there is always sunflower-- for both Physical and Mental Jobs

 

Yeah, and they did say I could come back at any time, but I am not sure that they would be steady enough employment at this time to make it worthwhile. Seems like they are always on Furlow.

 

The flor workers are-- the office staff generally works more as a general rule.

 

The Hospital and school are the other 2 big employers---- there is always Salina or Concordia-- Not that far I suppose ---- Maybe teach? Or there is a strip club in Salina-- you could DJ again?

 

Oh.. I can't work at a strip club, the won't let me in after finding out that you are my friend and the time you got out of hand up on stage last time.

 

HA HA HA HA! Forgot about that! No more Thong song for me!

 

It wasn't even strip karaoke!!!

And worst part.. it wasn't even a strip club..

That poor pastor and his congregation never will recover...