The day after Christmas my fiance had a breakdown of some sort and the result is I no longer have a fiance or a child. On top of the heart attack, now i have a broken heart too. Not to mention haveing to find a place to live also. She kicked me out of the house on Dec. 26 at 1:00 am w/o any place to go. A good friend is letting me stay with him for awhile. I could sure use a break from all this unfortunate luck. I am having a real tough time copping with the lose. Being alone for me is a real bad thing, I find it real hard to be happy. The hardest part is losing the boy, we have such a wonderful relationship. Even though he isn't my blood, you wouldn't have known it from watching us together. Wasn't anything I did or didn't do she just isn't liking herself very much and need some time for herself. I don't think we have a future together any more no matter how much I want it. I will always love her and Asa, but she tells me to get on with my life and not to wait for her I am trying to figure out what to do next, everything seems pointless right now, but what is a man to do?

 

Man, I went through the very same thing many yrs. back!! I feel for you brother. Turns out the woman I was with had some sort of winter gloom disorder. Had something to do with not getting enough sunlight. I spent a lot of time and energy trying to make the situation work with no luck.

She is right though, get on with your life. You really need to heal before you try finding another partner.
Prayers will be with you.

Mark

 

Thanks alot Mark, it's been real tough! However today I went up to Asa's school and held him and told him how much I miss and love him. He loves me so much, I just sat there and soaked it up for 20 min. I went there to say goodbye and found I was unable to do so. Instead I asked him if he wanted to spend some time with me. He was so beautiful and said yes I do!!!!!! So I feel real good about that, and have started the healing process now! ( I think). God Bless Niki and Asa and all of you at FTE!!

 

You know you have folks here that will listen to you and offer a hand. I don't have easy answers, but there are probably a bunch of us that have been through real tough times at on point or another. I know I have. If you need someone to holler at email me and I can do the phone thing or I'm sure there are ways some of us can get together. Just know you have friends here.

Del

 

Jeff, man I feel for you and it is a tough time. Take the time to heal and look out for yourself the rest will fall into place. Don't hesitate to call or email or whatever you may need we will be with you and help in any way we can.

 

Just a tip, make sure that mom is okay with you and Asa spending time together. If she isn't, it could wind up being one huge mess for you,

 

Sorry to hear that Jeff. It's a tough situation but you'll make it thru.

 

Just seent his thread. Sorry to hear about your bad luck. I heard you had a heart attack. How have you recovered from that. Im prayin for you guys. I see some good luck in your future.

 

Thanks for the tip , but that is one thing we both agreed on that Asa and I shouldn't destroy such a wonderful relationship That I can see Asa any time. His real dad is a sperm donner. I am the only real father he knows. We love each other just like blood! no diffference to either of us!

 

Jeff, let me tell ya about an experience i have had.
I met a girl that i fell head over heels for and cared and loved her very much. I was in the process of buying her a ring and was gonna ask her to marry me shortly. Anyways her parents came to town and me and her dad went golfing. When he brought me home, her truck wasnt home. I invited her dad in for a drink but he said he was meeting his wife in Topeka for dinner.
When i walked in the house EVERYTHING was gone. She took all her belongings and all she left was a note for me. "she said we wasnt compatable(sp) and that we wasnt going anywhere." Well broke my heart and i cried for days!!
Today i have moved on and found a wonderful wife that im very in much love with and have a beautiful daughter with. Sometimes when we move on, we find bigger and better deals! I wouldnt trade this day for the past. As i refelect on the past , im thankful that she did what she did, for now i wouldnt have the wonderful life i have now!!
Sara, i know you'll read this and i know you know about it, but YOU and ABBY mean the world to me and always will!!

Remember Jeff, God has something in store with each and every person and maybe this is his was of saying that times change and its time to move on to other things!!

Just my 2 cents!!

Jeff

 

Also Thanks guys for being such great folks. Friends are very important to me right now. I have been reaching out and looking for help. Many people have opened thier ears and hearts to help me out. It will take me some time to finish grieving, in my heart they are my family, the one's I thought for the rest of my life! Hard to let that goÉ

 

All I can say to that is thanks!

 

Well I don't know what to say that hasn't been said before. The only thing I know is if you show up at Winsteads on the 15th, I'll buy ya dinner.

 

Ill hold you to that my friend!!!

 

Theat's great. There are too many kids out there that don't have positive role models in their life. I know that, while this is devastating to you, it will pass with time. Kids sometimes don't heal as fast as adults, and having you in his life will help mold Asa into a good person.