. . . I sat and thought for a few minutes after reading these posts. We go through so many struggles in this life, to each his own. Things are happening every second without our permission or even knowledge for that matter. It can tend to make one fearful to even venture out his/her front door.

Then something occured to me. I am not alone. For every person out there who lies, cheats and steals, there is a person like myself who is willing to stand up for what they believe in. There are others out there who will make the ultimate sacrifice for a complete stranger. People who will only grip tighter when the wind blows harder. . .

I am a young man, I have an 18 mo. old Son, and a beautiful wife. I am blessed beyond my own reason. I am Happy because of the difference I can make in the lives of those around me.

Good will overcome, Happiness is attainable when you can learn to open your eyes. When you realize this all you have is to look behind you. You are not alone, I've been behind you the entire time.

David

 

david.brady, you are an inspiration. I wish I had been as squared away as you when I was young.

 

Very interesting and uplifting stories guys.

 

Im still trying to figure out how a 19 year old makes so much money??? I'm 52 and have never made that kind of money. Of course, living in Montana, where the mountains and lakes are supposedly a part of your wages may be part of the answer.

Am I happy? Lets see.... I'm in pain most of my day. I'm married to a woman who is not a wife. I don't have the desire to start all over with another woman. If I ever do divorce, I will for darn sure stay single. I only work 3/4 time so my income is limited, but I still do kinda alright there.

But the crux of the issue is that, yes .. as I look around me at the issues other people have to live with daily, I'm probably a heck of a lot happier than most. I don't have mental illness. I do have depression that I have struggled with over the years, but I still have the will to live. I look at how my friend, who does nothing but whine and complain about everything and realize I'm sure a lot happier than he is. I'm definitely not rich or even as comfortable as I'd like to be.

But as said before... I'm alive. I believe in the Lord and know for sure that He has some special reason why I exist. Yeah, overall I'm happy.

 

FordLover,


Seems we have something in common, Here in FLorida they(the Man) tell us that the Sun, Sand and Beach are part of our wages...



Life works in funny ways...


Big Mick

 

Hmmm....well, I am starting to slip in and out of depression again, it started back up I would say six months ago? I was in it real deep two and a half years ago, until me and my gal got back together, but even now I am slipping again, she is the only thing that is holding me where I am...and I still do not know how long I can hold out, if I go down again, I do not wnat o drag her down with me. Perhaps my life has become to melo? I have not done anything truelly outrageous in a long time, I mean, me and my gal rented a condo down in Florida back in July, that helped out alot but not very long lasting...I mean, I cannot say as my vehicles are helping out, My car, my mustang, been sitting in storage for 2 years, all I have done with it is tow it to a new storage facility....the truck I just bought, my 4x4, got a cracked head and a broke auto locker up front...my 02, nothing wrong with the truck except all the miles onn it now...I mean, 18 months old and 40,000 miles, no warranty, and I still owe 12,500 dollars. And guess what, I have no money to work on the stang, or fix the 91, or fix the 02 if it breaks. Hell, I still gotta buy 4 new tires, I HAFTA buy new tores for the 02...and I can buy a complete replacement engine for the 91 for $300, but I do not have the money. All this, and my paycheck is about to decrease. I am sick of my roomates, one of em has two cats that he never picks up after, place is a mess, I get home after work, and he went into my room, left the door open, and one of the cats got in there and crapped on the floor...I mean, AHHHH, this is just...not enough hours in the day, weekends are to short, even when you have a three day weekend. My room is a mess, I have no motivation to do anything, Guys, I am sorry to be bothering y'all with my problems but I had to vent...

 

No man, you should focus on the positivies.

This is something I realized, the process of living itself is good enough to be happy about without anything "great" happening. Just being is good enough. You don't have to pursue all of these other things, they never make you happy. Yes, you should pursue more things but not for happiness.

 

Carpe, when was the last time you spent 30 days in Military Correctional Custody? When was the last time that the military paid a professional to try and break you? To break your spirit, you, your being? Things are only getting worse for me...BTW that is where I was for those 32 days I was not on the site. The only positive I have from there is that I am now in better physical shape than I was before I left. I find that there comes a point where maybe my being is more of a burdon on everyone else than a blessing on myself. Have you ever gone 30 days without being abl to talk to ANYONE? The one oppurtunity you have to see you own Mom and Dad and you cannot give your Mom a hug? Shake your Dad's hand? 30 days where all you can do is polish boots, iron uniforms, read the Good Book and think about where you messed up and where you are headed? 30 days of being led around like a little child? To me, this was 30 days of living hell for more reasons than you could ever understand. And this is nothing compared to the hell going on inside my head right now. I mean, I am lost as far as what to do, I have no idea where to go, or where to turn, my girl has been fighting with me over what I believe to be either insignifigant or pointless crap. She has been a blessing that has helped me get through these last 2 and a half years, She is the reason I made it through my 30 days, every morning meal, and night I prayed God would give me the strength to see me through it so I could protect her, take care of her...You know what I found out when I got back? Let me see, I had problems tryin to tell my aprents and her how badly I had meesed up that I was being sent to Correctional Custody, so we have been fighting about that since I got back, she brings it up at every turn, I also find out that while I was down there, (understand I am very jealous) that 1) she went to Homecoming with a guy she used to go to high sschool with (he is younger than her and still in high school) 2) (maybe I am overly paranoid) Her and two female friends went out one night bowling with..you guessed it, three guys they used to go to school with and 3) (the kicker) After her college homecoming game she went off with a few friends to a party, yes, one of them glorious drunken orgy ridden frat parties we all so love...and yes, she did go and get drunk at that party, and yet, she will not get that drunk when around me, I men hell man she was doing shots....even taking shots of the ole ice block...and this is what she will ADMIT!! And she has a lower alcohol tolerance than me, which is pretty darn low.. Two nights ago she started got mad at me because I did not tell her about this girl I was messing around with...OVER 3 YEARS AGO!! before we started dating!.

All this my finances....my vehicles...work..all of it...I am lost...I have no idea what to do now.



On edit, It is vets day, I am here at work, not busy obviously, I have not eaten in two days...am not really hungry either, when I am at home, I just sit on the comp all day, as I have no motivation to do anything...I really need to start packing seeing as how I am moving at the end of this month into base housing..

 

Sounds like a good time for introspection. When things fail, stop doing what you are doing and pick a new direction. I have had my whole world fall apart (as it seemed), which is very depressing, so you do something new.

 

But taht is the problem what to do? a new carreer? not possible? And I can not see myself without my girl, or my truck(s) I mean I ahve no idea...There was a time when I had been able to start fresh, wipe the slate clean and try again..I am now at the point in my life where that is not possible, I have what I have and have to make do, but I do not know how

 

Jimmy, you really just need to lighten up a little.

You seem to be headed on some crash & burn path (as your handle would suggest).

Just realize that if you make it to an older age, you will find happiness more than likely. Many here probably went through the same thing you are at some point.

Some realizations about life- when you accept you will be better off.

- All things break- even Ford Trucks.

- All people die.

- Wives and girlfriends have their own motives and wants different than you. If one gives you problems then go find a different one.

Basically- in order to be happy you need to understand that life involves making the best out of situations that are given you because you can't control everything.

 

Stand back and take a look at the whole picture. The things you want to save are the same things you say are causing you grief.

Do you really need 3 vehicles right now if you can't afford to do the repairs on one of them? Maybe you want to reduce and cut yourself some financial slack and relieve yourself of some pressure.

Did you try making a pro/con list of your "possessions" and see if you really need them or if you have more reasons to dipose of some/all of them?

From personal experience; I've found that my outlook is infinitely brighter when I'm not buried by financial commitments or tight finances.

 

Well, the mustang is up for sale, for the right price...I have a guy coming down form Dover AFB to look at it. As for the two trucks...I need something for the weather we get around here on occasion...(My truck got ran off the road last winter by one of them crazy arkanoid drivers who has never seen snow before....so I bought me a 4x4, I cannot afford a new 4wd and I drive to much to have an old junker as my daily driver....so this is my only option...I only paid 2750 for the 91....with the exception of ...well a few things it is in good shape ...it does have an ever growing list of problems some minor some not so minor....ok none are minor some are just not very expensive...

I do not wish to get rid of the stang, that was a gift from my grandfather..I only pay 40 bucks a month on storage..granted in my financial situation, 5000 is a nice chunk of change, it will fix the 91, pay of all my debts except the 02....I just don't know....I have had that mustang for 2 years with the knowledge tha ONE DAY I can get it restored...

 

Jimmy Dean, I assume that you must be young. You have a lot of time left to turn things around. I wish the best for you.

 

Yea, people (friends) are married with all kinds of problems. Kids with problems; sick, bowlegged, ect.,ect. And all I'm worried about is "How am I going to get all my exhaust ports to match?" Lucky for me when I was young dumb and full of c*m I listened to my elders (dad) and I did not get married. I did not get credit cards, I did not ever buy a brand new anything which required payments. It was tough at first, but the more I live the more I realize that women are heartless creatures who are incapable of love anyways .And credit and debt are just fuel for heartburn!
Yea, I live a wonderfull life under the radar. I swear it's been at least one year since I even checked the mail! No bills just rent and everythings included! I drive around in overpowered cars and trucks and truley play hell on the rest of the world. Here in Florida, in the sweet little town of Davie, it's so hard to get that wasted day in and day out........but we do!

Now about those women that can't get pregnant......