Im always depressed. And the fact that my best friend (Sara) since Kidnergarden, who I was about to ask out, was asked out by a friend of mine who I know was just using her. That kicked it in real hard even though they never went out.
I actually had my SKS sitting in my lap with one bullet on my desk. I came close, but I thought about my mother who already lost one child (my sister) and I just couldnt do that to her. I have had no girlfriends (yes, not one in my measly life), no job, no money, and now that all my friends have trucks....they go out on the weekends fourwheeling while I sit at home and watch TV.
Sorry to drag on like this....

 

I think it is more a issue of not having a significant other. Sometimes it gets bad-- but, when i look back at all the BS that goes along with it. I am glad I am single right now. Remember those people that are holding hands right now are probably getting their butt chewed when they get home, the next day, etc.

They are also the guy having to buy elaborate presents for his in- laws that more than likely hate his guts and putting up with their hell as well and doing Christmas the way the in-laws want to etc.,. I look at it another way when things got sour-- they have set you free to enjoy your life. Christmas time turns out to be a guilt trip for alot of people on spending too much money, what the right thing to do is, and that you have to be with someone. Have you ever looked in the mirror and said ,"WOW!! I feel great not putting up with someone elses BS." Don't let it get you down as the right one will come along- until then enjoy your freedom and not being pushed around during the holidays.

 

I think I am depressed. Not sure. I started the year off fracturing my knee on the ice. I am self employed, so I went back to work the next day. It was pretty painful. Then my mother got sick for most of the year. Our houses flooded over the summer. Then my mother died, and within two weeks my father got sick and died three weeks later. Just when I said it must be over, I lost my truck transmission this week. I hate the cold and lack of the sun.
But on the other hand, I still have family and friends who care, including some I have made through FTE. I still have a company, and work to do (construction). I still have a truck to drive and food to eat. Many people don't have food, or family or friends. My knee never healed right so I walk with a limp. Some people can't walk at all. Some people can't see the sun, or hear anything.
Maybe I'm not depressed. I have alot to be thankful for.

 

HAHA! The BEAST.....I like.

I already bought all my Christmas presents.....except my wife....I can leave her until Christmas Eve.

My parents (family) all know I love them. If I was that hard up for money and told them I was not going to buy gifts they would understand. I enjoy getting people presents and watching them open them. I usually only spend about $50 a person. Not $1000 like some people do. I usually try to pay CASH and not rack up my credit cards (MORE!)

-Matt

 

Trike! Thank You!
We all do have so much to be thankful for!
Things are never all bad.
Things are never all good.

We just have to look to find the good sometimes!

 

Sure I get sad, but it is more like guilt. I always feel why should I be so lucky? Why do I have enough to eat, a place to live, and friends when there are others who have so little?

 

Alway's fighting depression here!!!!! Ive had 3 failed back surgery's,and have a beutiful wife,and a 8yr old boy,and a 3yr old girl,and trying to live from the goverment after paying in since I was 13(old enough for working paper's)is imposible!!!! I still try to do a little here,and their driving dump truck but my back won't allow me to work at least a part time job to make the differance that is needed to buy the little one's a pair of shoes or a winter coat if needed.But I smile everyday I awake to see their owsome face's!!!The Ford truck thing is what I do with the 8yr. old boy couse we have done the street warior racing before I became disabled.The kid love's the Ford truck's,and plus his Uncle Randy(my best freind),and me have alway's done the Ford truck thing so the kid is "VERY" smart,and love's to play with the truck's or be their when were working on one.Then me and the 8yr old boy(Heath JR.)built the Supercab,and he was a great help with jacking,lowering the engine hoist,GETTING TOOL'S,and saving me time off my leg's allowing me to be able to work for a couple of hour's at a time.He really enjoy's turning wrench's!It's not like im working with a kid,he is almost an adult with a Ford truck,and that make's me proud.The little girl is fallowing his foot step's too.The wife would rather see her playing with a Barbie but I can't control what she want's to do.So basicaly not only do I have a GREAT family I have saport in the only toy's I have left in life,and someday will be handed down to JR,and his sister.The reson I get up every morning,and try as hard as I can to do the best I can is becouse of the Wife,and 2 kid's.My pop died when I was young so I know the feeling of growing up with out a father,and I will in noway let my little one's do the same if I can help it.Life is alot better if yea stop,and think of all the good instead of the bad.This probaly sound's like jibber jabber but My main point is I had the world by the short,and curley's,and one car accident took that all away,but I fight every waking minute to get it back couse Im alive to be able to do so.You guy's are great here,and I meet a freind threw this sight who has the same life style as me being disabled,and Now we are very tight freind's,and keep each other going.It's true when it's said life is what you make it.Just have to find the way around or over the hurtle's life throw's at yea.God Bless all And MERRY CHRISTMAS.

 

im in the same boat Uncle jesse,
christmas was a big thing with my mother we would always
put up lights(takes us 3 days put the out side lights alone) and the tree, big family get
to gethers all that stuff. we lost her 4 weeks ago and its big bummer. she kept every body in the christmas mood and right about now is when i need it the most.
but you just got to make the best out of what life throws at you.

 

I stay slightly depressed all year, but I agree, this time of year is the pits.

 

I am there, I have SAD, I feel like hibernating like a bear this time of the year...Dark at 4:50 pm here.....gloomy....
Did a medical study with Welbutrin XL, take it during the winter months. Helps

 

Jesse, depressed isn;t the word for it.. I lost my grandfather (WW2 vet, flew 51 missions, was a Pearl Harbor survivor) in october, then my little brother was 10 minutes away from the Alrosa when that guy killed Dimebag Darrell, he was the last person to talk to him that night. Dime was doing his soundchecks when alex was leaving.... I am broke and probably won't even be able to manage a decent meal for Christmas this year.

 

I know the feeling, I have a problem with depression myself, as do my father and my sister. People who don't suffer chronic depression seem to think it's just something you should be able to snap out of, but it's just not that simple. (I only wish it were.) This will be the first thing resembling a Christmas I've had in five years, since I moved back to where my family is, but I find myself not looking forward to it. Still haven't bothered with a tree, or taken the time to dig the decorations out, and so far have no inclination to do so. I wish it would all just go away. -TD

 

I saw a TV commericial the other day warning about the ten warning signs of depression. I only had eight of them, I can't even get depression right. Seriously, my dad had polio when I was a kid and he was paralized from the neck down for over fifty years. He never complained. He always said to be thankful for what you have, there is always someone worse off than you. He was the inspiration for our whole family, as well as many many people in the community. He passed away four years ago today. When I think of him, it is hard to be depressed.

 

My husband grew up with very few Christmases. His family were working poor. Only one time he remembers his family having the money for a tree and all the trimmings. So this time of year is not the best for him. My family always made a big production out it with all kinds of stuff.

When the kids were growing up, we tried to have something for them to have good memories.

 

I know I am, I had a car deal go badly and I have to sell my toy (99 Mustang GT) in order to fix this mess.