Serious topic inside. If you need help...
#17
One of the warning signs I watch out for is how much I care.
People who suicide have decided not to try anymore.
I have a serious hatred of those who would try to take advantage of me, to rip me off, to ridicule...
TO CONVINCE ME THAT I CANNOT WIN
It goes all the way to the bone, to the very fiber of my being. I am outrageously allergic to those who would seek to take advantage of me.
IF I EVER BEGIN TO WONDER if things matter, if I should continue to fight, if I ought to continue to struggle - or WHY things seem so much harder than they should reasonably be...
I become stubborn.
I don't even know where that part of me comes from. Maybe from my stubborn Pennsylvania Dutch Poppa, I don't know....
Maybe because I have no good reason to believe that any one way or another is better than my own.
I don't know if it is even a bad thing that I should have to think of it - but a few times I came close, and I wondered about why that was.
And that made me more angry than ever.
IF ANGER is the only thing that has kept me alive, then it is a good anger - and it has it's place.
I'm not sure what you call that, maybe it's just plain "FIGHTING SPIRIT" even though fighting is one of the things I don't like.
But if I have to - to finish me anyone who wants to trash me is going to have to shove me down a garbage bin bleeding and lifeless while trying to hang onto life themselves after whatever it took to take me down.
I will not go quietly, and I will never quit.
I have felt pain before, I have been hurt. And to some degree I no longer care about that anymore. I WILL succeed
The only one who can destroy me is myself
For those who wonder - I suggest that you build a STRONGHOLD within yourself, that no one else can take away
It is YOURS
It is YOU
UBU
Be strong, be yourself.
*Quite a few people here have seen me post those three simple letters: "UBU". It has not changed any...
People who suicide have decided not to try anymore.
I have a serious hatred of those who would try to take advantage of me, to rip me off, to ridicule...
TO CONVINCE ME THAT I CANNOT WIN
It goes all the way to the bone, to the very fiber of my being. I am outrageously allergic to those who would seek to take advantage of me.
IF I EVER BEGIN TO WONDER if things matter, if I should continue to fight, if I ought to continue to struggle - or WHY things seem so much harder than they should reasonably be...
I become stubborn.
I don't even know where that part of me comes from. Maybe from my stubborn Pennsylvania Dutch Poppa, I don't know....
Maybe because I have no good reason to believe that any one way or another is better than my own.
I don't know if it is even a bad thing that I should have to think of it - but a few times I came close, and I wondered about why that was.
And that made me more angry than ever.
IF ANGER is the only thing that has kept me alive, then it is a good anger - and it has it's place.
I'm not sure what you call that, maybe it's just plain "FIGHTING SPIRIT" even though fighting is one of the things I don't like.
But if I have to - to finish me anyone who wants to trash me is going to have to shove me down a garbage bin bleeding and lifeless while trying to hang onto life themselves after whatever it took to take me down.
I will not go quietly, and I will never quit.
I have felt pain before, I have been hurt. And to some degree I no longer care about that anymore. I WILL succeed
The only one who can destroy me is myself
For those who wonder - I suggest that you build a STRONGHOLD within yourself, that no one else can take away
It is YOURS
It is YOU
UBU
Be strong, be yourself.
*Quite a few people here have seen me post those three simple letters: "UBU". It has not changed any...
#18
I refer to you as a strong swimmer in the river of suicide. When you do have thoughts, you turn around and swim back to the no-thoughts area. Greywolf, I recommend you try ASIST training. You are plenty strong enough on your own. I think if you got the training you could use that strength to help others. I think DOD might adopt it in a while. DA is observing our program here.
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Darn right you are on that, I'm glad to see a guy like you on the forums who is willing to offer help to thoose who are suicidal. Very few people these days seem to care enough to help someone who is clearly in need and it downright sickens me to see someone who needs help to just be left alone like it just doesn't matter.
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Darn right you are on that, I'm glad to see a guy like you on the forums who is willing to offer help to thoose who are suicidal. Very few people these days seem to care enough to help someone who is clearly in need and it downright sickens me to see someone who needs help to just be left alone like it just doesn't matter.
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I think it's well worth keeping this thread bumped up, this time of year even more so. Its ironic during a time of peace and joy so many feel overwhelmed and too often opt out............
JWC 3 so sorry to hear of your loss----not sure what else to add other than hoping those who remain have all the support they need or want dealing with this.
JWC 3 so sorry to hear of your loss----not sure what else to add other than hoping those who remain have all the support they need or want dealing with this.
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I think it's well worth keeping this thread bumped up, this time of year even more so. Its ironic during a time of peace and joy so many feel overwhelmed and too often opt out............
JWC 3 so sorry to hear of your loss----not sure what else to add other than hoping those who remain have all the support they need or want dealing with this.
JWC 3 so sorry to hear of your loss----not sure what else to add other than hoping those who remain have all the support they need or want dealing with this.